PinnedLove Blossoms In The Little ThingsWhat is love? Whenever I encounter this question, my mind reminds me of Haddaway’s song instead of an appropriate answer. I smile to stop myself from responding with, “Baby, don’t hurt me.” Yes, I am afraid of love hurting me. …Love5 min readLove5 min read
PinnedNew Year, New Me? Not this time.The beginning of the year is an exciting time for most people. It signifies hope, a chance for a fresh start, and endless opportunities. It’s a celebration of endings and beginnings. For some, though, the start of a new year triggers anxiety and depression. After dealing with feelings of defeat…Medium3 min readMedium3 min read
PinnedA New Nightmare - EndometriosisPain has always been a loyal companion. I don’t remember a time when I was without it. I’ve been chronically ill for 22 years, but lately, I mumble, 'I’m in so much pain,' more times than I have for all these years. I started this year happy. My heart was…Endometriosis5 min readEndometriosis5 min read
Feb 4, 2022Love Has Always Loved MeEver met someone who felt like home? Their arms felt familiar from the first time and you could unmask and lay it down? Ever been held with so much tenderness, an assurance with no word spoken? Held like everything will be okay when your world is all up in flames? …Love3 min readLove3 min read
Oct 30, 2020I'll Get Sick Again - Living with Rheumatoid ArthritisHow do I teleport back to winter? I miss the clear night skies, the hissing wind on a July afternoon and better health. Season change is always torturous for me, especially in the spring and summer months. …Ｍedium4 min readＭedium4 min read
Oct 7, 2020Letter to My Inner ChildLittle Ayanda I’ve dreaded writing this letter for a long time out of fear that my words wouldn’t carry any weight after all the disappointments you’ve suffered. I apologize for the delay. You’ve had the world on your shoulders for so long that being a child eludes you. I apologize for that. …Ｍedium3 min readＭedium3 min read
Sep 26, 2020TW: Hypersexuality As A Response to RapeHypersexuality is a common response to sexual assault/rape, yet we rarely speak about it. It wasn’t until 2018, after years of invalidating my trauma, that I learned that my hypersexuality was a normal and valid coping mechanism to rape. I was raped the first time at 13 by an older…Ｍedium4 min readＭedium4 min read
Sep 11, 2020Where Do Tired Moms Go?Parenting is an adventure I wanted no part of. I’ve lost count of the times I’ve woken up defeated and ready for an opt-out button from motherhood. The fact that I have to show up for my child, whether or not tired, has been the hardest reality to grasp. I’m…Ｍedium5 min readＭedium5 min read
Aug 5, 2020The Big 2–7!Yesterday, I celebrated another trip around the sun and it was special. Now, I’m not one to fuss about my birthday as I felt that it was just another day on the calendar, nothing special. My birthday celebrations have always been decided by my family and this year was no…Life3 min readLife3 min read
